My Tears
sit, unadorned, the pain envelopes me. I feel sorrow yet joy, I feel pain
yet happiness, I feel love.
I feel forbidden love, impossible love, love that exists deep within my soul but that I cannot touch.
He waits, smiling. His open arms embrace me from afar yet, I cannot have him. He waits for another, she loves him dearly. We both love him dearly, but he waits for her.
They dream of walking together on the ocean, of loving, of making love...I dream of the same, it will not be.
He lives now but soon will not, a monster exists within. He could get ill at anytime, he could leave me, he could leave her. Without him we would also die, with him we both live.....our lives overtaken by the love of someone so special we cry at his absence, yet he knows not how incredibly special he is. I long to feel his touch, embracing me completely. I long to look into his eyes and see the joy, fear, love and pain that exists within. I long to hold him as he cries.
And yet, she longs for the same and he loves us both. Life is too cruel, allowing you to find someone whom you love so much but yet taking them away. My tears shed as I write, knowing it will never be for her or me, they shed knowing she is a friend, yet, I love the man she does, they shed knowing a monster will take him away from both of us much sooner than it should, he will have pain, he may be alone...they shed for him, her, myself...all of us.....my tears.
